This is part two of a series of posts I’ve been writing to convince myself I took the right decision.
Part one of this post, if you’re interested: https://fearlesslynat.wordpress.com/2014/10/19/why-in-the-world-didnt-i-study-literature/
I have always gone with the flow, and tried to do what felt right at the moment. I remember helping my classmates to choose what they wanted to do, to apply for their colleges of choice, while I still didn’t know what I was about to do. I had already applied to my college (and I definitely do not regret that decision) but I still did not know enough about myself to take an informed decision. Getting to know myself has taken a lot of time, and I am still trying to do so.
When I was a senior in high school I did not look for the requirements to be a Literature major, and that makes me kind of sad. Now that I think about it, that might have been because I did not have a counselor available to help me explore my options. Most of my teachers thought I would pursue a career in Literature. Choosing Biology was a surprise for them. I just wish I had had the time to think about it, to imagine myself doing something other than Science, even if I would have taken the same decision I took, in the end.
Science just felt right. I wanted to be a doctor. I wanted to make a difference. I did think it was going to be easier than this. I had always been good at everything, without much effort. In hindsight, I realize how wrong I was, but I am glad I am learning everything along the way. It is not easy, but it is worth it. I need to realize how everything related to my future will take time and effort. I am at a crossroads right now. I am going to take the classes I need in order to study Pharmacy, which is my goal right now. Pharmacy sounds good, especially since I have realized how much I still love Chemistry. Even if it takes a lot of time
and headaches, I still want to work with something that is related to it.
The truth is, Science just excites me. I love when I learn something new, when I discover the reason why things are the way they are. This is the reason why I chose Science.